I loose pens left and right. I could not care less how fancy my pen is. (Or is not as the case may be). Every single thing on my person during a call I view as potentially disposable. Because I loose stuff all the time and because sometimes is just isn't worth it to wash it. Honestly, if you want your own pens and don't want to always be lifting them from the ER, station or your partner, just go get a box of those amazing little Bic pens from walmart and hang on to them as long as possible. I save money every way I can, and if I lost a $30+ pen every call, there would be no point in me even working, as all I would be doing is working to keep myself in pens.