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StCEMT

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So....been a REALLY long time since I've been on here. I see there are still some "long timers". How y'all doin'?
Still just up to my usual nonsense. How's Arizona?
In other news...got my first vaccine today....
Have about a week and a half until I get my second. I fortunately had no symptoms, but a lot of folks I know say round 2 hits different.
 

GMCmedic

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Gonna get the QI guy on the phone and go over all the PCRs till he says I'm good and golden and then they can't report me later for faulty reports.

Then I'm just done

I'm so furious I want to radio in my resignation. But that is probably against FCC or something.

"This is (my name) on medic (whatever). Put us out of service for single crew member resignation effective immediately."

I've never wanted to give a company the finger in such a way before.
Youre actually in a pretty good position when you have reports out. Thats how they get paid, and if you get canned, they cant bill for them.

Empty threats at this point. They may fire you for being a troublemaker, but itll be after your charts are caught up.
 

CALEMT

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So....been a REALLY long time since I've been on here. I see there are still some "long timers". How y'all doin'?

Still here, losing my sanity one force day at a time.
 

DragonClaw

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Youre actually in a pretty good position when you have reports out. Thats how they get paid, and if you get canned, they cant bill for them.

Empty threats at this point. They may fire you for being a troublemaker, but itll be after your charts are caught up.

I'm still going to finish my charts. Then I'm done.
 

DragonClaw

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Let the day when your resignation officially starts be the day you learn how to separate you from being an EMT. Being a Paramedic is what I do, its not who I am. I genuinely enjoy my work for many reasons. But at the end of the day, its simply how I prefer to pay my bills, put food on my plate, and buy myself dumb **** from time to time. Its not my defining trait/feature/quality.

You have the right goals of being smart, educated, compassionate, and competent. Keep those, because we need that. But from my limited knowledge, you also overthink the hell out of this job and let it define you. Don't stop questioning yourself in a healthy manner. Learning from how you did (or didn't) do things is good and how you grow as a provider, but there is such a thing as too much of a good thing.

Your employer isn't helping. Its a lot of unnecessary stress as you've learned and I do think you're making the right call for yourself. But you also gotta learn how to get out of your own way or this won't be a sustainable career for you. Your last post is the prime example of why I say that.

Take some time away from the stress.

Focus on school while you make a new plan (not that you don't ever, but if you asked as many questions in class as you question yourself here, you'd be the smartest one in the room).

Get the hell out of your own way.

Start fresh and apply the things you've learned.

You'll do fine if you put the work in, but you can't be successful if you beat yourself. Thats all I got for ya.


I find it very hard not to overthink. I spend a decent amount of time thinking about how to think less on things. Highly ironic.

That aside, I've been thinking the same. Yeah, am an EMT, but that's not a personality. I still have a life outside of work (even if I sometimes take work home or do extra reading, etc), but I need to figure out how to separate the two.

I just got an email back today from a 911 gig in another county where my boyfriend put in an application. I will need to brush up on my NR skills, but it will be good to do that.

And yeah. In class, it seems like I'm one of 3 students. I had a rough go the first semester , and I think it was the fact I put in effort and actually answered in class and gave good replies that they were benevolent and merciful to allow me to make up a test that wound have failed me.

I've made changes since then. I'm not going to allow these distractions get in the way of my medic. I got ADHD meds and am working on bettering and centering myself just to be able to balance everything.

Work life school balance is hard, so I've just got to put more into it to make sure I can sustain myself.

Gotta keep my chin up.

About to head into the station to finish these reports and wash my hands of this craphole.
 

DragonClaw

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Buddy of mine just checked in on me. I told him I was about to quit without notice.

All he says is "Wow, you must be really frustrated with the place."

Because that is so unlike me to just want to slam the door in the way out, even if I've had my disagreements.
 

DragonClaw

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Convinced the supervisor to give me an interview tomorrow.

Okay okay.

Good. This is good. Don't screw it up.

Brush up tips on this?

Do I mention my future ex workplace?
 

Seirende

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Ugh, cardiology appointment today was awful. My heart's fine, but the way he treated me was not. Brusquely putting hands all over me during the physical exam without a word of asking permission and only once letting me know what he was going to do, which incidentally was not concerning the part where he wrapped his hands fully around my throat. My trauma history didn't include stuff that makes that a trigger for me, but I don't believe that he's never caused a massive trauma reaction in a patient during a physical exam. Given that my hx is more of emotional abuse, the physical exam was merely unpleasant but the way he talked to me had me in tears after the appointment.
 

GMCmedic

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Pulled my oldest out of school today. Her teacher was Covid positive (this didnt trigger close contact), and I found out 3 other kids in her class had left this week sick. Had planned on keeping her out this week and maybe next week. 4 hours later the school calls, shes out for close contact. Back on the 28th if she doesnt get sick.

Meanwhile my Tennessee Hog hunt is now in jeopardy of being cancelled for the third time thanks to covid (obviously my kid is whats important here, still annoying).
 

GMCmedic

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Oh yeah, my 3 yeard old got a covid test the other day, much against my objections, I just wanted her ears checked. Shes negative, and also not a fan of it.
 
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Jim37F

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Pulled my oldest out of school today. Her teacher was Covid positive (this didnt trigger close contact), and I found out 3 other kids in her class had left this week sick. Had planned on keeping her out this week and maybe next week. 4 hours later the school calls, shes out for close contact. Back on the 28th if she doesnt get sick.

Meanwhile my Tennessee Hog hunt is now in jeopardy of being cancelled for the third time thanks to covid (obviously my kid is whats important here, still annoying).
Yikes hope everyone is safe and healthy
 

Seirende

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Reading my notes from today
First provider: "history of....excessive daytime somnolence" "unrefreshing sleep"
Second provider: "She feels rested in the a.m. and does not suffer from daytime hypersomnolence"
There was some miscommunication with one or the other of these providers... just really frustrating how two medical professionals can be talking to me on the same day and write exactly opposite things

I feel like I should trust the sleep specialist more on the sleep issues, especially as she was the one whom I felt was listening to understand and not just to respond
 

DragonClaw

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So we're expected to dress business casual and be able to perform psychomotor skills. It is at a FD Is EMS pants, a polo, undershirt, belt and boots (basically EMS uniform) acceptable for this?

I usually dress like in slacks, dress shirt, etc.

Guy replied on his off day and I'm sure he's done for the day.

We're not supposed to change

Suggestions?
 

CALEMT

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Killed my first javelina this evening. 19 yards 2 hits. The arrow hitting him and him hitting the ground. First kill with the new bow too.
 

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