here it is
Yes, some time has passed. And in that time, some good things have happened, and some bad things too. So far, I have decided to stay at the department becuase it's better for me to do so. I need to work for a department. I am currently at a loss as how to further address the situation. Currently I keep my comments to myself, and bend over and take my superiors verbal abuse, becuase standing up to him only made me look unruly and unprofessional in the eyes of the department... It's too late to fix that.
It may be better if you guys ask me questions since I dont know where to begin explaining the problem. I'll paint a background picture for ya though of facts rather than speculation:
My problem: My superior is abrasive, cold hearted and goes out of his way to bombard me with criticism in an unproductive way. He does not do this with the other probationary members. I liken it to the way a master reprimands a dog yelling at him and hitting him with a newspaper. Im a human and should be treated as one. I have feelings and dont deserve to be treated like a lower life-form or garbage. I think people should care about people. Thats why I got into the business. I want to help people. I dont think that his attitude has a place in the fire or ems service.
I excell. I have been fortunate to be born to an upper-middle class, and receive a first class education from the ground up, attending two universities and receiving a bachelors degree. I became very poor very fast trying to make it in my original field (I choose to keep my prior profession to myself.) Now I have come into his life and excelled at his profession.
I am proactive. The department was not ready for a proactive probationary member and doesnt know how react to me nor what Im allowed to do and what Im not. They have special meetings about me all the time deciding what I should and shouldnt be allowed to do. They examined the bylaws last night and decided that I am not allowed to respond at all without a member. They originally told me that I could respond POV to EMS calls. Well, not anymore. For all practical purposes, I can put my uniform back in the drawer becuase Im not going to be going on calls anymore. heh.
He has twisted my words and actions. He has told the members in a officers meeting that I resigned breifly because I can't take criticism. Thats not true at all, and I never said that. My previous profession was heavily based on criticism and my problem with the department wasnt with the department at all! It was with this guy and the nature in which he delivers his reprimandation and nobody should be treated like dirt. Thats not conducive to creating a strong community within the fire department.
OK theres the jist of it. If you have any further questions, ask and ye shall recieve.
