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So I worked my first code yesterday, I wasn't running the code but we run a 3 person truck and I was the second attendant and our unit was first on scene. I thought we did really well but the individual didn't come back.
It was particularly hard for me because the individual was an 11 year old male and as soon as ALS showed up they called it and we terminated CPR and it was just really really sad on me. I think the haunting look on his face kinda shook me deep a bit too. It was a really awesome call for experience but yeah.
Anyhow after that code was called my adrenaline was still racing cause we were doing CPR for about 15 minutes and my head just started racing with thoughts like holy :censored::censored::censored::censored: should i do this anymore but I'm fine now I love the career but it was just a very hard call for me. We did a brief CISM after that and each person on our crew was close to tears.
I think this and possibly SIDS or child abuse are the worst kind of EMS call to do
It was particularly hard for me because the individual was an 11 year old male and as soon as ALS showed up they called it and we terminated CPR and it was just really really sad on me. I think the haunting look on his face kinda shook me deep a bit too. It was a really awesome call for experience but yeah.
Anyhow after that code was called my adrenaline was still racing cause we were doing CPR for about 15 minutes and my head just started racing with thoughts like holy :censored::censored::censored::censored: should i do this anymore but I'm fine now I love the career but it was just a very hard call for me. We did a brief CISM after that and each person on our crew was close to tears.
I think this and possibly SIDS or child abuse are the worst kind of EMS call to do