OP: I suggest you re-read the linked thread. While we do help each other in (sometimes) a lively manner about things related to EMS and (rarely) nursing (as that pertains to EMS), we do not provide medical or psychiatric advice. This is not the appropriate forum for that. Please find an appropriate medical or psychiatric professional for that type of advice and care. If you are simply seeking attention, we will not entertain you. With that, I'm locking this thread.