Goodbye EMS I'll miss you dearly...I may return at a later date

[TatuICU]

Originally Posted by Sasha

What are you talking about? I heard nurses were very friendly and helpful people

Lol, I've been a nurse for awhile now and I wouldn't consider myself overly friendly or helpful

[Sasha]

I'm sorry I forgot to use my sarcasm font. :p.

[InsidiousStealth]

Yes events conspired as I stated. I would make little mistakes on calls since everyone is new at one point or another and does these thing and i elaborated that i had a long gap between practicum and becoming certified. No patients were harmed in my care. I even handled quite a few pretty sick patients too on my own too.

Yes Sasha next time I will do things differently and I tried to address the problem [like I stated] and it escalated and got worse. Yes I shouldn't have not been as timid but is it really helpful to say I "should have done" something differently when the past is the past? I'm not stupid I learn from my mistakes and to do stuff differently next time. I've already ran scenarios a million times more in my head on what I should have done differently and its not helping. The whole point of EMS is to learn from calls I thought and get better on similar ones for next time but i guess I should be a superstar know it all according to some partners off the bat.

The lack of encouragement towards a nursing degree is just awesome though I mean thanks for indirectly saying it'll happen again with people eating their young...seriously why would you even say that? What would you do in my situation? I don't even want to apply for anywhere else in my province cause its provincially run and I don't trust anyone anymore so if I get let go over something stupid again then its game over on getting hired anywhere in health care it makes me paranoid and not want risk it.

I didn't know what the hell I wanted to do for 7 years after high school and chose this and it all backfires on me and now I'm 28 and gonna be almost mid 30's before I even have a degree...if I even succeed in getting it. I sometimes wish I hadn't been born cause of this cause it feels like I am a miserable failure now. The desire to even live seems questionable, I am not suicidal because i know doing that would hurt everyone close to me but the desire to actually enjoy living sure isn't there anymore. This is honestly the hugest kick to the balls I've ever had to deal with in my life. People in the first company who know me thought it was stupid too and a lot of people were confused about the whole thing and why it even happened. One person I worked with when I was casual a number of times even said " I personally think its a shame because you were always eager to learn and get better as a practitioner and wanted to help people".

On the plus side thanks for the condolences and sympathies. At least those were given. Sorry if I sound like a dick in anything I said up there but I really get defensive when talking about this and when people blame it on me saying I should have done things differently....It's sort of a "captain obvious" remark that I really don't care about right now and I know I would have done things differently if I had the oppurtunity...it's like saying "Oh if i knew the lottery numbers the following day I should have picked those ones"...again sorry if its being a dick but yeah...sensitive topic. Just still to this day can't believe the nerve of people to backstab me over almost nothing....people have issues

[Sasha]

Replys like that are why I don't write out helpful responses anymore. I assumed you wanted feedback.

You seem to need a lot of guidance ad hand holding, and you sound like you think Nursing will give it to you.

Nursing won't. People like to think our professions are different and have an us vs them mentality but the reality is we are more alike than different. I have a feeling if nothing had been said you'd be ticked no one warned you.

You can say what you want about my response but I've never been fired from a job, so I must be doing something right. Instead of criticizing maybe you should take it and keep it in mind for next time. It's applicable to any job.

[Supertampon5]

Sasha be trippin'